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(Sunday, March 25, 2007-)
+3/25/2007 09:29:00 PM]*

# days without u-

girl.. i missing u right now.. this very moment!! 3 days never see u le worx.. only hear from u on the phone and msg nia.. but still thats enuff.. hee..

wow.. today dear so cute.. she msg me that she miss me lehx.. like wow lo.. cox she hardly say this type of thing de.. hahax.. say one simple i love u also like so hard.. hee.. hahax.. super duper happy.. hahax..

ytd no update cox play dota till forget.. when i finish 3 lioax.. so scare.. faster go slp.. cox the next day need wake up at 7.. then in the end overslept.. woke up at 8.15.. then must bring my brother to church.. reach there at 8.30.. in the end late worx.. zzz.. then got big scolding from mummy.. reach home le help to pack the house.. shift things.. take out old stuff and pass to the kara guni man lo.. what a day.. lol.. quite tired.. injure my leg.. oh man.. hurtx.. dear some more so worry.. sry worx.. never take care of myself..

ytd night was quite busy.. working.. but luckily this time i prepared.. so my bar was not jam!! woots.. lol.. but lots of cakes order.. cox all half price after nine.. then so many ppl buy.. lol.. cake fiesta.. hahax.. was fun working.. i like working at cartel.. lots of fun stuff to do that.. the ppl there are friendly.. lol.. having fun with our very own cartel family.. our funny nicknames.. lol.. fruits.. lol.. really is fun working there.. yeah..

tml going nyp.. go plan my sch timetable.. hope next year can study better.. hopex..

wondering how dear ish now.. go call her..

love
love me
love augustine me
endx..

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(Saturday, March 24, 2007-)
+3/24/2007 12:45:00 AM]*

# wonderful life-

today overslept!!! then never go help mummy work.. so sorry.. cox of my late night games so always sleep so late.. oh man.. very worry about my poly timetable.. fuk that teacher.. why fail me.. stupid.. hate that module.. i rather go do those computer de.. more fun lo.. hiashx.. no choice.. got to stuck with that course.. learnt a big lesson from it..

ALWAYS STUDY HARD AT FIRST.. MEANING FROM YOUNG.. OR NOT COME TO POLY OR JC CANNOT STUDY THAT COURSE THAT YOU WANT!!!

haishx.. already study halfway le.. must as well continue.. no one to blame except myself.. who call me starting dun take things seriously.. always play and play.. now regret also too late lioax.. now i know why they say they prefer studying than working.. well.. adult world.. here i come..

hmm.. say things more positive bahx..

actually i did not expect my mum to accept me dear de lehx.. cox i tot she dun like me having girlfriend.. but when i brought her home.. and my mother come back from work.. she was like chatting with my girl.. and both of them were in a conversation.. seriously.. i was shock.. then i tot about the past.. cox i remember my mother sort of object my past girlfriend.. giving it a thought.. maybe at that time she worry about the relationship between me and my past girlfriend will affect my studies bahx.. then there they were chatting.. and lata after my mother leave the house cox she got stuff to do.. then i was thinking.. wow.. this really happening to me.. good things.. everything i had ever dreamt of.. was happening to me right now.. right this instance.. i was very happy. i want to shout out loud.. i told my girl how i feel and she kept laughing at me and keep scolding me bai chi.. zzz.. lol.. but still she still cute in her ways.. dear.. lol..

from her i learnt new things.. about love and life.. i really treasure her lots.. cox i find it hard to find someone like her.. she once told me.. that must treasure her worx.. cox she treat me super good.. she said it in a joking way.. but i reply her that i will not let her go.. but there is a part of me.. that secretly enter my feelings.. giving me a bad feeling.. like say what if we break up.. will that day ever come.. cox i dun wan too.. i mean i dun bear to leave her.. i told her how i felt.. and she also say the same thing to me.. that she ever thought of it.. in the end.. she reply me one thing.. dun think so much.. and i look at her.. and say.. i dun wan ever think of bad things between u and me cox all i care ish the happiness and joy from our relationship.. let nature take its course.. i will go on with u forever as long as i can.. and at that part.. i kiss her..

its amazing how much love can do or make a person to be.. there is still much more to learnt.. life's a long learning journey.. we will be learning as much as we can as we grow older and wiser..

love
love me
love augustine me
endx

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(Thursday, March 22, 2007-)
+3/22/2007 11:26:00 PM]*

# bac in blogging-

wow.. was quite a long time since i update my blog.. lol.. hmm.. got to thanks my dar.. seok chin for helping me to change my blog and make it nice nice..

not bad ar.. make till so professional.. lol.. thkx dar.. mauckx..

this long while when i never update.. alot of things happened! i got a job.. working part time at cafe cartel hougang mall.. and still studying at nanyang poly.. helping my mother work at her new shop at chinatown.. and also.. me got dear le.. lol.. so happy..

but sad things also quite alot.. hmm.. father had gone away to rest in peace le.. was quite sad cox he left without a word.. may GOD please bless him.. and dear papa.. bless us 3.. mummy me and austin.. hope the three of us can pull thru together.. overcome all problems and troubles.. and may we always stay united..

now got dear come help me oso.. very much thkx her.. really worx.. dear.. u are the best.. really.. was really very happy when u come into my life.. never expect u will fall in love with me.. cox me still the usual.. fat and ugly.. lol.. but still u brought joy into my life again.. i cannot thank u enough dear.. cox i feel so xin fu for the 1st time in my whole life.. and this feeling ish great girl.. ohhh.. hope u just know how much i love u.. hee.. promise to always be by ur side no matter what happens..

today dear come my house help iron clothing then burnt her hand hand abit.. sorry girl.. should not have let u do all the hard work.. but in the end.. i also burnt my own hand with the stupid iron.. zzz.. lol.. but it was a fun experience.. 1st time iron clothing.. can u believe it.. lol.. 20 years old lioax.. 1st time iron.. must sound pathetic but its true.. lol..

hmm.. it sure feels good to update again.. yeah..

love
love me
love augustine me
endx

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(Thursday, August 03, 2006-)
+8/03/2006 09:57:00 PM]*

# what ish love?-

What ish love all about.. who knows the answer.. who seeks for the answer.. who always run away from the truth and the answer.. guess no one knows the true meaning of love.. or maybe some do.. but love this word brings lots of meaning.. it brings alot of other things along with it.. like jealousy, hurts, joy, etc.. and for me i miss that feeling.. truely..

sometimes in a relationship.. one has to give and take and forgive and forget.. cox u love that person so much i suppose u cannot bear to lose that person.. so dun mention the word break no matter how serious ur quarrel ish.. once a wrong move or decision ish made.. the very next day u will regret and then u will feel the whole world has just collapase right in front of ur eyes.. but this also have pros and cons.. meaning there ish another thing.. cox if u choose the wrong type of partner or fall in love with the wrong person.. i dun think the forgive and forget part would help much as the outcome would be break and patch.. like that whats the use..

second chances are hard to get in life.. believe me its really hard.. thats why we need to cherish whateva things we have now.. for example u need to treasure ur love ones around u.. for they give u so much support along the way.. like me.. i now treasuring everything.. i hope its not too late..

love this thing has become to come to me again.. the feeling of finding someone i love had also been kind of bugging me.. the urge the feeling ish just so hard to stop thinking.. but what to do.. sit here and wait? i cannot be go and know more ppl right.. i think once they see me i guess they will think twice to see if they wan to know me or not.. this is the part that leave me depression.. sometimes in life i hope to do sth good.. like sth that will make my family proud of me.. but all i do was just to hurt them more.. i feel like i am so useless.. even her.. i try to make her happy.. always be there for her.. but she ish still sad.. i dunch know what i do is right or wrong.. this is the 1st time i ever felt that i am nothing in this world.. my studies not strong.. always making ppl around me angry or sad.. i am thinking.. what can i do?

saying about love.. lets me think of being cared by someone.. i always think of how the feeling of being cared by someone feels.. i cared for one person.. but she neber ever tell me how she feel.. i only scare she will feel irritated by me.. i also dun know.. but i had always cared for ppl and her.. i just wan to be cared.. like someone always there for me when i sad.. someone i can tok to.. someone i look for.. and someone who only see my tears.. but guess i will not have that chance.. why? how i hope someone can care for me.. like the way i did.. ish it fortunate to be cared?

i never realise how important u meant to me till the day i had u in my arms..
i never believe in miracles until i get to contact u again..
i dunch care what other ppl say what i do ish right or wrong for i believe in myself..
i dunch wish u to be sad n hungry.. promise me will u.. but u only like to haha.. zZz..
i will love u as much as i can.. even it hurts or just to scarifice for u..
i will always be here whenever u need me.. call or msg and i'll be there..

love
love me
love augustine me..
Mo0d5w1nG bO!

bo lioa story!!!
boy: i love u
girl: (thinking) i love u..
boy: yeah.. i so happy..
girl: why u happy?
boy: cox u love me..
girl: if i dun love u will u be happy?
boy: of cox not..
girl: but i will..
boy: why?
girl: why what?
boy: why u say u will?
girl: of cox i will.
boy: (crying) what did i do wrong? why? i do everything for u then like that..
girl: (confused) why are u crying? what u talking about?
boy: (crying more) u not going to love me anymore.. u wan to dump me.. is it what all this ish about?
girl: (laughing) so is it because of this?
boy: (eyes red, still crying) where ish ur cooling heart (liang xin).. still can laugh.. u really going to be happy?
girl: i say i will love u.. not i will be happy.. u think till where?
boy: (dun know wan to cry or laugh) oh i see..
the end

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+8/03/2006 09:06:00 PM]*

# what ish love-

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(Monday, July 17, 2006-)
+7/17/2006 09:19:00 PM]*

# i am fine..-

Hey.. long time no update le.. tell u guys what.. i had not been sad at all.. guess after i had made all my feelings right.. i am much more a happier person.. although deep down inside myself.. i want to love her.. i want her to love me.. i want to spend all of my time avaible with her.. but i think this is the right choice that i tell myself to stop loving her.. at least this way she will be more happier.. and of cox when i love her i wan her to be happy..

u must take care ok? dunch always moodswing.. anything can come find me.. i will sure help u till the end.. no matter whats ur problem or what u are suffering.. just look for me.. i will try my best to make u laugh.. or maybe try to make u smile at least.. i wan u to have a feeling that whenever u are with me.. i will always feel safe and happy.. i dunch wish u to feel stress whenever i am with u.. dunch worry.. i have made my feelings clear.. u must take care..

love.. yupx.. i been thinking about it too.. i wish to love.. i hope to love.. but just cannot seem to find it.. or maybe its been looking for my as much i am looking for it.. well.. who knows.. and thkx my friends.. for they told me the same thing.. if u wan.. u can look for it de.. u can sure find love.. i agree with them.. i kinda of lazy to go find or try to make more new friends.. but after much thinking.. i might be able to find love.. but just is it true love? i dunch quite know.. or maybe i dunch have the things girls look into a guy for bahx..

i envy alot of ppl.. ppl who can love and be love.. always so tian mi mi everytime.. i had experience it once.. and only once.. that was really very romantic feeling.. i cherish it and treasure it so much.. and i only had loved one person so much.. sometimes there are some who had the chance to be love.. but they did not accept the person although they felt that they too had feelings.. come to think of it.. it ish really hard to make a decision though..

love really bring alots of lessons learnt.. some went thru good experiences while some had bad.. i once think if there was no such thing call love in this world.. would we all survive? love makes u happy when being able to find someone who u truely love.. and can be loved.. but if cannot find it.. one have to suffer to love that person.. its kind of weird though.. but i learnt alot from it..

i am now really quite happy with what i have now.. but i hope i can love again.. i want to experience the way of being love and love someone.. lol.. sounds kinda stupid though.. i must agree.. where got ppl so desperate till like that de.. hahax.. but just a sudden rush inside of me to write this out.. maybe someone out there ish waiting? or am i waiting for someone?

treasure all ur loved once if possible.. every relationship is quite precious.. cox once its lost, its very hard to get it back.. treasure that person.. trust that person.. cox in the end that person might be the one u been waiting all ur life for.. who knows.. love can make ppl happy.. and can make ppl sad.. but still there are alot of pp loving one another.. whenever a fight broke up between a couple.. dunch say say then break up cox like after every rain.. there will be rainbow which ish colourful and joyous.. so after after fight or quarrel.. take that chance and talk.. sort out each others differences.. and then.. the love between each other will be more stronger..

lol..
love
love me
love augustine me
will u?

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(Thursday, June 29, 2006-)
+6/29/2006 09:36:00 PM]*

# love u no more-

Yes.. i had to tell myself i dun love u anymore.. and that will come true.. i will show u.. i admit.. i love u.. yes.. and now u avoiding me because of this then i guess its time to stop right? ya.. tok to u just now.. was fighting every of my emotions..

now i have been clear of what i wan.. and what i will do.. love sure brings joy to those.. but in the dark.. it hurts most.. so.. now to stop my hurt and to let u carry on with ur happiness and joy.. i will stop loving u..

the only thing i going to miss is those times that i spend with u.. not online ish it online or offline.. or going out.. i dun think we will be sitting with each other side by side.. ciggy in one hand.. or pei u eat.. seeing u eat.. or just to see u do ur things.. i going to miss all those.. those i really treasure in my life.. i dun know why but i really love u.. since if u dun wan me too.. i guess i have to stop..

augustine now officially dun love her anymore.. its true.. all i am to her ish friends.. i do not know if there is a best in front but we are friends.. but i guess she still angry or irritated by me.. either ish my actions or maybe she is feeling moody bahx.. if she scold me she can be happy i dun mind.. all i wan her ish to be happy.. thats all..

i really going to miss those times i spent with u.. what to do.. for ur happiness.. my small scacrifice is worth it.. and i really hope this time love will not make u cry.. but tell u 1st.. i will still be here.. for u.. not waiting for u to love me.. but i will be here for u if u need me.. just call me and i will be there.. whenever u need me.. i promise.. i know u always tell me promises are meant to be broken but i dun want it to be broken cox its for u..

take care lots..
love
love me
love augustine me
bye..

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(Tuesday, June 27, 2006-)
+6/27/2006 09:39:00 PM]*

# given up hope..-

love hurts.. deep down.. i been recieving alot of questions.. my friends all asking me if i patch back with her.. and when i say no.. they dun believe me.. cox they always see me and her together everytime.. but the truth ish really.. no.. i neber ever did patch back with her.. i was just her friend.. but yes.. i wan to patch back.. i wan to prove to her that my love will be different.. but she just dun wan to give me a chance.. well.. its ok.. i dun wan to force love.. i rather wan it come naturally.. but too think that my chances are gone.. not even one.. it hurts me lots..

for the past i been helping her with alot of things.. i pei her when she bored.. i buy ciggy and we share.. when she was sad.. i was there.. when she need someone cox of her family problems.. i was there.. she was hungry and sad.. i was there too.. but i guess she neber ever need notice me or notice what i had done for her.. its just only a orh.. like i should be doing that for her.. i dun know if i am doing the right thing.. its just.. i feel like doing those things for her.. but now i guess i cannot even have the chance to pei her go out anymore..

i dun blame her.. maybe she think i am not good enuff for her.. or maybe i am really that sux in love.. who knows the real answer.. or could be the feeling ish not right bahx.. just hope she can find someone who can love her the way she love that person.. cox the way she love a person is so amazing.. that the person will feel happy whenever when he is with her.. but just hope that guy (whoever it is) to treat her well.. i dun wish her to get hurtx again..

at 1st.. i tot after the ton.. everything is going to be ok.. we will be fine.. happy with each other.. cox i can see she is treating me more better.. when see me will laugh.. happy.. smile smile.. but now.. i see more of her anger and sadness in me.. i guess maybe she ish kinda irritated by me.. i dun know what happen or what cause this.. maybe she already found someone she can love.. and there is no use of me anymore..

i so sad now.. i dun know what to do.. i wan to love.. who doesn't.. but i not given any chances.. some more i dunch think i can share my problems with anyone except post in the blog bahx.. cox i guess she dun like to hear my problems.. when she hear she will scold me or say me and we will cold war.. who can i relate my problems too.. suddenly in this world i feel alone.. but the funny thing ish when other ppl tell her their problems she will consuel them.. tell them what to do.. but what about me? nth? hiashx..

my life really is in a mess again.. studies is getting better le.. at least thats good.. but in love and family.. everything ish worse..

i really love u.. i know u dun wan to hear me saying this to u anymore le.. but i really do.. guess now i had to give up.. and just sit and wait till u need my company again.. but when is that going to be? u promise me we will patch.. but i guess its a lie.. and who knows i am right.. why.. why.. which part of me do u not like.. hiashx..

love
love me
love augustine me..
i see dark clouds over me..
raindrops splash on me..
but i when i look up the sky..
its so bright..
i so down..
i not trying to gain pity from anyone..
is just i wan to write down how i feel..
sad..

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